Not much has happened since the last entry, actually, so Ill just do my nightly mindless ramblings. I think I may be a master at noticing when history is starting to repeat again in my life. im going back to the same old lonely hole I started, and will probably end. I can never feel safe again, can I? Anyway, the chongo show on youtube posted another two polka but with the orignal artists videos yesterday, and apparently Goose Boose posted another video 5 days ago, so I will be listening to/watching those as a little treat for myself later tonight. How do people openly admit they have (a) paraphilia/paraphilias? Im not saying its something you should be proud about, nor am I saying its something you shouldnt be, youre very brave if you admit that publically, but by god, the level of confidence is fucking insane. I dont think I have the ability to pull an all nighter again. Ive been trying to do it again just so I can feel alive for a little, but I keep falling asleep at around 8am. I need to start morning sodas again I guess so the carbonation can keep me awake. Do people actually read these? Do you like listening to my miserable life? Do you care at all? Do you await the next time I blog again? Do you use it to pass time? Will I ever know who you are?
Song for the blog: